i was trying to pretend it didn't happened ,like it didn't exist or something so i could may not feel like it . but we are supposed to fee it . the pain is because we are alive right ? Chris , just like a Stone , now you are gone too . i didn't thought loosing a singer would make me slip into my depressions ,
but here we are . and the rollercoaster started to running . We made through the first fall , there might be some stomach aching for a while . but its good . i haven't cry in years , now i know i am still alive .

if you are reading this . the movie called 'Blue Jay' is perfect .